Dear Earth, I’m a happy bunny.On 1st October 2019 by Satya
Yesterday I was feeling totally overwhelmed. There was too much to do before the rebellion this Monday. I was frightened about what I was letting myself in for. After waking up to your grave prognosis, dear Earth, I was missing my old comfy-in-denial life.
Today I am happy. What changed?
A good night’s sleep. A reassuring message from a loved one. A meeting with other rebels where I heard their grief and felt less alone. A grocery shop of posh food from Waitrose. An offer of a flask of soup for when I’m on the faith bridge next week, possibly cold and wet. An excited greeting from a happy Little Dog.
My internal weather changes, and it will continue to change – especially at a time like this. That’s okay. Your weather changes too, beloved Earth, and much of it is necessary for your health. Without the long days of rain, you wouldn’t bloom in such glorious technicolour. Strong winds sweep away your rubbish. The warm sun keeps you from freezing to death.
My grief has certainly fuelled my journey into environmental activism. My anger shows me where my boundaries are. Even my low, grey days force me to lay low, allowing me to recuperate.
I’m not saying that all my weather is necessary or useful. Sometimes there’s just a violent storm, and it sucks. And, I do find it helpful to keep my mind open – to see if I can find any treasure amongst the wreckage. Yesterday reminded me that I am human, and that I need to go easy on myself. It reminded me that I have community around me, and that I can ask them for help. I am grateful for that.
Tomorrow I might be visited by a cyclone. Today I will enjoy being a happy bunny – bounce bounce – I hope that my happiness might be a little infectious.
Love, Satya <3